Detail of an unfinished drawing called “Shop”
When I pray I pray for pure intentions — kind of cheesy, but I want to make sure I’m living this way for the right reason.
A few foggy minutes ago I was working on a drawing for the Girl Muscle Girl site, trying to finish it up in time for a self-imposed Wednesday deadline. I like the drawing, think it has potential, but after a few hours of work I realize I can’t commit to it, not tonight.
Normally in this situation, I’d put the drawing aside and come back to it in a few weeks, no big deal. But looking at the drawing some more, I’m beginning to think I like everything the way it is. I’m thinking maybe I’m allowed to like drawings in different ways throughout the process, not just at the end — after all, the “finished” work is usually a betrayal of a far more exciting, far more promising, earlier state. And now here I am thinking, I am a happy man blessed with easy good looks and passionate, forgiving friends, why not publish the unfinished drawing anyway?
And so, here’s the drawing. I like it. Maybe it’s unfinished, but this drawing still fulfills a lot of what I’m hoping for with the site, in particular my desire for a kind of spontaneous self-portraiture, a snapshot record of various mental states (currently, I am cautiously happy with a dash of regret). Maybe the site is more of a sketchbook than anything else, we’ll see.
Laters,
Ed.
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